Why?

I lay in the silence of the darkness and hear the echoes of the night. Laying next to you I hear you breathe. In the shadows of the moonlight I want you to embrace me, but I can't stand your touch. As I feel your body close to me, the pain is just too much. The aching of my body and the bruises on my skin. How can you sleep knowing the torment I am in? This pain you have inflicted I cannot understand. How can you say you love me with the palm of your hand?
Silently I get out of our bed and tiptoe to the door. I then slip into the shower and fall silently to the floor. Crying as I try to wash the filth from my skin. The memories stay to haunt me of this terror I live in. Curled up on the shower's floor, crying my silent tears. I try to wash my bruises and escape my fears. I wonder why you hurt me and say that it's love. Why take away my happiness and all that I've dreamed of? As I wipe away the tears I can still feel the pain. What is this need to punish me over and over again? You promised to protect me, but I can only wonder why the same hand that embraces me is the same that makes me cry. As I crawl out of the shower, I had hoped to clear my head but all I felt was hopelessness. As I return to bed, as I lay there in the shadows listening to you breathe, I'm wondering if I'll ever have the strength and the courage to leave.